Gosh Darn it, I Hate This

Okay, I'm sorry I don't have another thing ready for you guys. I really am. My life is complete chaos right now, and it's not my fault, even if I keep blaming myself. I hate it when I can't be consistent with you guys.

So I'm starting my second year of high school in four days. Normally, I would be excited. In fact, at this exact time last year, I was all prepared already and had the outfit for my first day of high school ever laid out and all my school supplies labeled nice and neat, waiting to be used. But there's an issue with the school right now. A huge issue.

A couple months before school ended, in May or something, this board came along (I don't know which one, there are too many and no one tells me anything), analyzed our school system, and told the entire school district it needed to completely reorganize the school days and make them longer. Apparently we aren't in accordance with the state, for some reason. I don't know what we're violating exactly, or how much we're violating it, or when they decided this, or why they decided to force us to change it now. I'm not an adult, and I'm not on the student council, so of course they won't tell me or anyone I know what's really going on. I was only able to gleam the info I have from one of my old teachers, who technically wasn't supposed to even say anything at all.

If you can't tell already, my school kind of has a problem with communication.

So they decided that they were going to try to fix this problem before this coming school year started. This was a bad idea, and I knew it, because both my parents used to have a big say in how one of the elementary schools was run, and if you want to change something as big as that, you're going to need more than a couple of months. And that was just for a small 600 kid elementary school. My high school has about 1,500 students. But they went for it.

I actually wouldn't have minded if it weren't for our schedules. See, I'm the kind of person who likes to have it all planned out beforehand. I prepare. But the thing is, no one even knew how many periods a day we were going to have, so how the heck were they supposed to give us our list of classes before they knew what the classes were going to be?

It felt really chaotic and uncertain until sometime last week, when people actually started sending out emails that were telling us to calm down, not worry, and even if school was starting in a week and a half and we didn't have any information on what was going on, we should be sure to have our school supplies ready anyway and not complain too much.

That was what we were supposed to live with until this morning when they put up a newsletter on the site that spent two pages discussing the new staff members and mentioned the fact that our schedules had been uploaded to the site we use to keep track of our grades. I cheered right then, out loud. I really confused some of the people around me, but whatever. Finally! Four days away from school starting, and I'll finally get to know what classes I'm taking!!

Except for that my account's being rejected. This makes me really mad, because all throughout last year the same site constantly had trouble with rejecting random people's logins, and then they'd have to reset their accounts. I was lucky enough to avoid that issue.

I guess it's just my turn to be rejected.

So my mom emailed the people, and examined some other stuff that was on the school site, and realized it said that if there's a problem, to please go to your small school office before school starts on the first day. We couldn't help but snicker at that. Seriously? If history repeats itself, I won't be the only one with this issue and there'll be a massive buildup of people frantically trying to pick up their schedules before they're late for their first class, which they don't even know what it is yet, which just makes them more worried that they'll miss it, and so everyone will be just standing around, getting more frantic, yelling louder, and louder, complaining, and no one will be able to do anything. It's going to be a big, hot mess on the first day. I hope they realize this and plan accordingly. Otherwise, they'll have a lot of huge problems. This is why planning ahead is better: you don't get massive pileups.

So that's some of the crap I'm dealing with now. It's a lot of stress, and I'm trying to explain it to everyone, because no one knows what it feels like to be me.

If you'll excuse me, I've got a massive headache, and it wasn't improved by thinking about this. But I had to tell you what was going on. I'm really trying to write some stuff for you, but it's just not working out right with all this extra... stuff. I'm also drawing a mini-comic on the side, when I have free time. I'll try to get it up before the end of September.

Also, on Friday, the 29th (of August), I have a doctor's appointment. Nothing big, I just have to get an immunization, but my doctor's office is really a far drive away from where I live, and whenever I get a shot, I feel really out of it the rest of the day, and I don't trust myself writing in that state. At least, not for you guys. So nothing on Friday. But maybe Saturday. Maybe.

I'm sorry nothing's working out like I wished it would. But that's life, you know? I've learned to deal with it.

            Time to travel to the future.
                        -PolarFarina