Unrealistic Ideas

I have unrealistic ideas about everything.

It's true: I always expect things to turn out far better than they do. Either that, or I expect them to be much worse. But I can never remember the negative things, so let's focus on the positive.

First off, let me clarify one thing: I am fifteen years old. I do not have the life experience to prove my expectations wrong before actually experiencing the event. In fact, I rarely have any idea whatsoever of what to do or what to bring, so of course I bring too much. I base my expectations on certain assumptions that usually turn out to be false. I really should just ignore these assumptions, but what else is there to go on? Every time I step outside there's an adventure waiting to swallow me up in its excitement.

I like to watch a lot of YouTube. Like, a lot more than is probably healthy. I follow the lives of many people who became famous within a year of joining YouTube. I love to watch their videos, because they look so easy to make. They make me feel like I can become famous, too. A lot of what they do is inspiring.

What's most inspiring to me is one YouTuber in specific. His name is Markiplier, a combination of the name Mark and the word "multiplier." Don't ask me why he decided to combine these two words, because he's never really explained it, so I don't know. But it sounds cool.

Markiplier plays video games, like lots of people out there, but what really sets him apart is his fanbase. He has so many fans that I've lost track of how many subscribers he's earned in the past two years. I think he passed two million a while back. He may seem like a random video game player, but he takes so much time out of his life to thank his fans, and they return the favor. Big time. They make all kinds of stuff for him, including animating videos as tribute to games he's played, constantly sending him lots of support, and there have even been several video games created just for him, often titled something along the lines of The Markilpier Game. He always finds them, and plays them just for his fans, always stopping to thank them for their love. I know there aren't any famous people out there like that. This guy is just so awesome it blows me away. And all he really does is play video games.

This is where I usually make the mistake of thinking I can actually accomplish something as amazingly constructed as what he has. Because he really did just start out as a random video game player. I usually say something like this: "Markiplier plays video games, I play video games. What could go wrong?"

What I don't take into consideration is that most of these people are twice as old as I am and have finished high school and college and actually know how the Internet works. I completely forget that I'm only fifteen and don't have the life experience needed for such a huge career yet. Seriously, there are people out there who make a living of creating YouTube videos, which of course just makes me want to do it even more.

I ignore all of these qualifications I'm not even close to having, and start making all these plans for a YouTube channel, coming up with names, and the sort of stuff I would put up there. I think about everything, plan it all out... except for how to actually make the videos. Eventually I somehow figured out how to downloaded some free software I could use on my laptop to record myself playing videogames. I took two videos of myself playing Minecraft and posted them on my channel, Polar Farina. I would've posted more, but my "free trial period" in the recording software ran out before I could continue. In five months, my first video has gotten twenty views. My second one has gotten nine.

My hopes were crushed. I thought I'd succeed! What had I done wrong? I reviewed my videos and concluded I actually sucked in this field. I literally cannot be successful recording myself playing any game on the computer at all. Mainly because I usually play a game like Minecraft silently to avoid bothering my family, I wasn't used to providing the kind of commentary it took to make a good video.

Then it occurred to me: I just wasn't playing the right game! I had many gaming sessions with my friends playing multiplayer games on the Wii, and there was commentary galore! I just can't figure out how to record us on the Wii... yet. I'm sure I'll figure it out.

But here's one thing I want to say: I've had this blog for two years. And I've completely forgotten about it multiple times, but you guys out there reading this have been constantly checking it, looking to see if I've posted something new, rereading old stuff. This blog, buried in a common name and wrapped in obscureness, has come close to getting 650 views. I know that compared to other blogs, that is hardly anything at all, but compared to my measly 29 views on YouTube, it's the goldmine. I couldn't have gotten this far without you guys. And now that I know you people are listening, it'll inspire me to write as often as I can. If it weren't for you, this blog would probably just get lost in the ten thousand seas of the Internet.

And please, please, PLEASE make sure to tell me what you think, to remind me to continue writing, and to give me new ideas. I will probably need the reminders the most. I'm always forgetting stuff, which sucks, but life is full of other things that are always pleading for attention. Sometimes I need reminding which things are more important.

I am ALWAYS looking forward to hearing your thoughts. Not including this post, you guys have so far commented twice as much as I have posted. I want you to double that! I want to hear from you people! If there's anything I've learned from Markiplier, every single success depends immensely on the fans.

       Thank you so much for being here,

                      PolarFarina :)